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It should be feeling good waking up at this time, I can hear the birds chirping merrily outside the window and enjoy the blowing morning breeze which has at least chilled a little the hot room. Neither I felt. I am not easy! It gets worse, and it is irritating ‘coz it might spoil the day! Things should have gone right, but the right things are never seen happening. Not my fault and not others’ either. Just blame the sinful mind and eyes. Perhaps it was not the right decision made, probably the worst and the most silly tho’. I wondered what are the whats and whys which have led to its occurrence. But I never received any answers other than those born from my own mind. I pledged, always, at least a truthful and sincere answer to my question. But it seemed to be a luxury. I begin to question my presence… to them. As long as being appreciated, I’ll be already much joyful!

I just wanna be simple and indeed, I am. I thought I am?

Goodbye A5102 which has been accompanying me throughout my clinical years. Goodbye UKM which has provided me a training ground in achieving my childhood ambition. Goodbye my buddies and friends whom their joys and sorrows had made part and parcel of my life. Not forgetting, goodbye to the not so perfect me. May the begin of a new chapter in my life brings me towards a more well being individual!

(At KL Sentral now. The train which will bring me back home has been rescheduled to 3.25pm and all of a sudden, I thought of Sarah Brightman’s “The Journey Home“!)

In 36 hours, the first paper of my final professional exam will start. Yet I fell sick this morning. Strongly I believe that the 3 mouth ulcers (stress induced?) since last week triggered the recurrence of my tonsillitis. Three episodes in 3 months and I am absolutely fulfilled the indication to go for tonsillectomy. Perhaps really need to undergo the operation after the exam.

Fever, headache and sore throat somehow have affected my function. Especially in this critical period to do the final revision on subjects which I’ve long left e.g. Public Health and the 3 minor postings. However, it is really heart warming to receive all the good luck messages from friends and relatives.

Go! Go! Face it with positivity!

“In faith we pursue, to glorify Him the Lord God.”

P.S. It is so excited to see my fav Lady GaGa has released her “Telephone” music video.

P.S.S. Sorry to Albert, my study mate for the not up to par discussion this few days. Everything will be fine real soon!

Today, I officially ended my last day of medical student in posting. This indicates my study break for the upcoming professional exam in March has also started. Thank God for His mercy and love on me. I am less anxious these few days after getting closer to Him again in prayers.

I had a recurrent tonsillitis again, i.e. I need to complete another course of antibiotic during this CNY. However it doesn’t mean I’ll take this as a reason to say no to all the good food around. Haha. The stomach needs to be pampered before the brain can work. True?

I couldn’t wait any longer to reach home but ironically, the train has not even arrived yet. While waiting, I browsed through Youtube looking for the CNY videos and I love this the most. 大团圆，大团圆！Promise myself that I’m gonna spend quality time with my family these few days.

Happy CNY to all! Remember to drink more water in the midst of hot weather. Enjoy! Both the holiday and study leave. LOL

Counting down. 35 more days to go before the final professional exam begins. Started to feel like a cat on hot bricks. It is always like that every time exams come especially a major one like this. I thought I am already used to exams and bouts of tests but indeed, I am not. I think.

My study table and stacks of books. This is just half from the total. ;(

Friends said, “The knowledge is already all in the mind. You’ve gathered and accumulated all of them throughout these 5 years in medical school.” I believe the saying is somehow true. What I need now the most is a little bit more recalling power tho’. And some extra confidence!

CF will be organizing a farewell party for us final year members a day after tomorrow (9 Feb). Hard to believe that I’m now the one being cherished goodbye! All’s well that ends well. Wishing everyone has a Happy Chinese New Year (and a Happy Valentine)!

P.S. will be spending my CNY holiday studying. Study leave starts on 14 Feb till 14 March. Pro-exam shall commence thereafter.