“L is for the way you look at me,
O is for the only one I see,
V is very very extraordinary,
E is even more than anyone that you adore.”

This is a verse from Frank Sinatra’s song, one of my favourite oldies. In my life, I’m still looking for the right one who is yet to turn up.”Where are you?”

Without love, life is just like seasons without summer or a circle without center.

Come on! Yesterday is already a history and it’ll never come back.

Tomorrow is a brand new day!

Do you know, you can’t stop my happiness endures, as…..

I LIKE THE WAY I AM!

16 November 2008 at 1150 is sunny.

Finally! I can sun all my wet clothes. Yesterday has been a terrible rainy day.

Despite of the great morning, perhaps afternoon, I am just feeling indifferent.

Not motivated to complete my case write-up.

It’s a real headache when it comes along with the post-mortem report (which will due this Thursday), another 1/2 in the Apley to be read, and covering beds for ward rounds… Endless issues!

This is the last week of posting in Orthopaedics, I’ve just started to love it deeper!

But, Pediatrics is awaiting ahead.. *sigh*

This is a specially written post for Ms. Loh Jia Hui!

Just want to say…

I know la..

Today is your special day~

Turning 22

 Remember to say thank you to your mom for delivering you into this world 22 years ago lo~

Or else, how can you enjoy the night in Alexis yesterday right? ^^

Again, HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY!

May God bless you more everyday~

Muackz!

I’m referring to workload and time; too many works awaiting ahead to be completed yet I’m running out of time. They are inversely proportionate huh?!

Every time I try to push myself harder to the limit, I’ll collapse, especially physically. Blame the cortisol which suppresses my immune system!

It happens again today, as predicted.

I’d set the goal of the day and was trying to accomplish it but eventually ended up getting an acute exacerbation of allergic rhinitis attack. Loratadine is useless currently. Partly are because of the fluctuating weather and dusty environment.

Minds are tangled and I don’t know which to start on first.

Anybody to help? ^^

P/S: Going from bilateral partial ptosis to complete now. Leave the undone jobs tomorrow la~ (A procrastinator’s excuse to make himself feeling better, ahaks~)

OMG! It comes again.

I thought I’ve already accepted the fact that I am actually fine, so far.

However, it isn’t as I thought.

What I’m gonna do now? Clueless..

It’s raining outside now, everything looks grey.

Hope I won’t be insomnic again tonight.

Sometimes, life suffers when we take too many unnecessary worries into consideration.

Life should be simple and we ought to live to its most.

I like a quote from a lecturer, saying: “Life is a journey.” Therefore, we choose our own path in this journey. To be happy? sad? hopeful? despair? They are ALL up to our choice.

To YOU, you’re just a passerby in my journey (even if I’d once treasured you like gems and stones).

Sadly, you ruined it all yourself.

I’m just fine and now, I’m just too busy to think of you again.

I’ve made my choice!

Today, I performed the 1st post-mortem in my life after observing 10 cases before hand.

I was quite anxious before I get started. As I’m going to open up a human body! Flesh and blood!

However, I need to go through it too.

Fortunately, it wasn’t really affecting much.

It was kinda funny when I was to get changed. Layers of clothing need to be put on us and we really have no idea which comes before the other. Haha..

It took both Shukri and I 10 minutes to discuss and get changed to the post-mortem outfit. It’s pink in colour and Shuk seemed to be hating pink very much. Haha..

The case performed was a young Indonesian maid who fell from a 17-storey condominium. Poor lady, she sustained severe chest and abdominal injuries from the fall. She was found dead at the place of incidence.

Basically, I just helped out in examining the body and weighing the internal organs dissected for the first time. Oh ya! I got the chance to make a few slices on the liver too. ^^

However, I learned a lot today. Thanks to Dr. Swarhib, a forensic pathologist cum lecturer.

In the silence of the night, suddenly you appeared.

Swiftly you went across my memory, unnoticeably yet leaving a large imprint there.

Viewing through your profiles in friendster, surprised to see that friends are still leaving comments in your page.

It shows how much we love and missing you.

Your absence is greatly felt!

For many times, you were strong and positively minded in fighting the disease. Even encouraged us (friends) to feel open in facing this hard time. Your smiles and laughs are probably the best motivators for me at least, in appreciating now and present moments.

However, the calling from God is stronger, He loves you more and you stumbled in the fight.

Soon, it’s gonna be 2 years you left us. Hope you are doing well and fine out there..

Miss you~

My last photo with Wei Kiang before he departed after a strong fight with osteosarcoma.

I fell asleep at 11pm yesterday night. Probably I’m already exhausted throughout the week.

Rounds, clinics, on-call and unsolving back pain are driving my energy out, TOTALLY~

I woke up at 11am this morning and making my sleep time 12 HOURS! That is already half of a day!

As usual, turning on my laptop and going online to check my e-mails is what I’ll do every morning.

While scrolling down my mailbox, an e-mail with this heading has attracted my attention: “Do You Sleep Too Much?”

It was a newsletter from WebMD, a site which I used to update myself on latest information on medical researches.

From my reading, I have slept too much, 7-9 hours a day is already sufficient. Too much is causing more problems!

Just to share with you the article, please click on this link.

Thus, don’t sleep too much~ ^^

p/s: I think I need time to change my sleeping time.. (A promise by a procratinator, haha)

From the first moment I heard Joanna Wang, I have already fell in love with her unique vocal power.

As a daughter of a famous Taiwanese musician, she has really done a great job!

Among the songs she had sung so far, this is my favourite!

One step too far
All at once I’m falling
Just like a star
I’m burning for you
Thought I could keep myself from feeling this way
I guess that was my first mistake

Cause suddenly I’m walking
Down a dark street to your door
Wanting you is driving me insane

And now my feet are standing
Where they’ve never stood before
Guided by a twist of fate

If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I won’t be afraid
Cause even if my heart should break
You’d be the best mistake I ever made

I’m in your room
Now there’s no denying
What’s in your eyes
When I look at you
Two shadows talking but they don’t make a sound
Words have lost their meaning now

And the air has turned electric
Now I know the time is right
To put myself into your hands

And suddenly I’m shaking
As your fingers touch my skin
I don’t need to understand

But If I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I won’t be afraid
Cause even if my heart should break
You’d be the best mistake I ever made

And if tomorrow proves me wrong
I swear I don’t belong
I know I’ll carry on

So I will lose myself and bare my soul
Take this chance cause heaven knows
I’m so far gone my choice is made
And even if my heart should break

When I lose myself with you tonight
Fall apart or hold on tight
Wrong or right I’ll always say
You’re the best mistake I ever made
You’re the best mistake I ever made
You’re the best mistake I ever made

Going back to KTDI today.

Feel very reluctant but still need to do so.

Holiday is going to end real soon and I’ve done nothing throughout this week except sleeping, eating, & chit-chatting..

What a corrupted life, again~ Hahaha..

Another sleepless night..

2 hours lying on my bed, thinking of falling asleep but I just can’t.

Don’t know why? Probably I have been thinking too much?!

Lastly, I have decided to switch on my laptop and go online.

Surprisingly, I am still able to see 10 people in my friend list are still online.

“Are you guys having a sleepless night too?”

I felt very relieved today. The feeling is so comforting.

Maybe because of this I feel relaxed? Perhaps…

I have the courage to ask you all those questions which have been bothering me for long, finally..

Happy that you did tell me the truth too~

I believe that you know I am mentioning about you.

Thanks dude~

P/S: Don’t worry, that’s a secret between us, P & C rite? ^^

One of the greatest enjoyments in life is SLEEPING!

I believe many people out there will agree on this fact.

And I, have been doing this for the past 2 days.

Slept at around 12am, waking up at 10am, then fall into sleep again at 3pm for my afternoon nap.

Will only get up for dinner at 7pm, then go online / watching TV / go outing etc etc..

What a corrupted life?! Haha..

After a tiring & distressing 3 days in orthopaedics posting, I’m pronounced to be a PATIENT.
What else? Sick already..
Runny nose, mild fever, 3 painful mouth ulcers, malaise, fatigue & etc etc etc..
They are very irritating.
Gonna rest more in recovering faster.
Mostly it’s because I am not affordable to waste too much time resting.
The cozy life in Psychiatry has passed and the horrible life of Orthopaedics and Paediatrics have started~
God bless me.

P/S: I want a fast recovery!

After a tiring 5-day trip in Singapore, and with a not enough rest, a new semester has started.

I am now in orthopaedics posting. Basically, we deal with body mechanic system. Are we a human mechanic then? Haha..

For the following 8 weeks in Orthopaedics Department, I’ll spend most of my time in spinal team.

One of the busiest team in the department.

Emm.. And I have felt it!

For instance, my schedule of the day was:

0800 - Departmental briefing.

0900 - Clinic starts STAT!

1330 - Lunch time.

1400 - Pre-op round with specialist.

1530 - Cover bed for tomorrow’s round. (Fortunately I have only 2 beds to cover and thank God, both of my patients gave good cooperation!)

1800 - Just got back to room.

And really kanasai! My room’s fan isn’t fixed yet! And it has been left like that 2 weeks already.

Really *#@&^%^%, the weather is damn hot but I have NO fan!!!

However, 1 good thing which I like the most today is that… I’ve PASSED my semester 7!

Kinda relieving now~

Why?

Why should this news comes so shockingly?

I thought I am away from everything but I am not!

I really hate it~ Totally!

I have fallen into a deep denial state, which I prefer to be numbed.

A strong sense of insecurity has totally affected my emotion.

God! I am in a dilemma…

Please show me Your way!

Please guide me through it!

I am in a total conflict now~

And I don’t know what to do!

I’m tired!

I’m very tired!

I’m very tired physically!

I’m very tired physically and my legs are aching!

Yet, it’s an enjoyable trip so far~

Albert, thanks for accompanying me here..

Sorry if I did hurt your feeling ok? A thousand apology~

Not to forget also Yu Jun & Chee Kwang who came all the way from JB to meet us up. It’s fun to have both of you around as well~

Gonna sleep first. Later will be another tiring day.. Haha ^^

In less than 36 hours time, I’ll travel away from KL.

Going to Singapore!

Even if it’s very near to us, but I’ve never been there. Pity~

Again, I’ll pick up my bag and for one more time, be a backpacker after my Phuket trip.

This time, Bernard is not around to help out.

And, I just realized how hard to do all those arrangements online.

Tiring~

However, whenever I think of the excitement & enjoyment there.

It’s kinda fun!

SINGAPORE.. Here I come!

I wana tell something..

I’M ON A HOLIDAY!!!

So syok!

Can’t wait to travel away from KL..

Hehehe~

Emm.. It’s study leave again.

End of semester 7 exam will start on the 2 Sept. Not independent at all despite the national Independence Day celebration 2 day prior to the commencement of the exam. What an irony huh? ^^

However, when thinking of spending my whole study leave at home is really very anticipating and exciting.

Miss my mom’s cooking so much!

The time is now 8.02 pm, and my train  will only arrive at 8.45 pm.

Another 45 minutes before I get boarded.

Please pray for my success in the exam ya~

Till we meet again 2 weeks later~

Really gonna work hard this time since I have been enjoying my life too much for the past few weeks.Haha~

Good luck lor!